Posted by: cthankins | 27/11/2009


Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.

–James 1:2

For too long I have been ‘like a wave of the sea blown and tossed by the wind’. Wanting desperately to find my place, my purpose, my posture–in each wavering step I take. I fight to escape the selfish desires of my heart and recognize the diminishing quality of sin will never fully relinquish its stronghold.

Said trials have lead me to a crossroads where I may only seek The Creator or delve deeper into sin, disparity and continual heartbreak. To escape the grasp of the enemy has been my deepest struggle. Sins of the flesh–jealousy, envy, bitterness, and contempt have wrestled with my soul, but will not find solace as they reside within me. I have asked God for wisdom and will persevere this unstable, upsetting terrain of my life.

Furthermore, being with the family reminds me how quickly I am to disregard my need for others. It’s easy to cut myself off from relationships when they hurt, but have most recently felt like God is giving me no other choice but  to work through these hurts and see the real value of letting others in. I just pray that God continues to help me with this process…


Posted by: cthankins | 17/10/2009

The Radio Department

My new favorite. I love upbeat indie/folk music with an emphasis on piano. Hence my love for The Swell Season. In my mind, The Radio Department is what happens when Anathallo meets Keane and yield something that is oh-so-cunningly-awesome and delightfully ambient. I imagine driving in my Mini Cooper someday [sooner than later] listening to this while I wholeheartedly exceed the speed limits of the Midwest countryside. Check it out and see if you love it as much as I.

Pulling Our Weight by The Radio Department

The Radio Department – MySpace




Posted by: cthankins | 15/10/2009

Still [and always] my favorite Kerouac quote…

“the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes ‘Awww!'”

— Jack Kerouac (On the Road)

Posted by: cthankins | 11/10/2009

New Paintings

Let me know what you guys (and ladies) think!

Posted by: cthankins | 23/09/2009


I like! Call me obnoxioso for obsessing about this band and continuing to listen to their album non-stop…see if I care! Really though–if you haven’t yet, check them out. A few of my faves:

Posted by: cthankins | 21/09/2009

Thanks B

I started this blog sometime over the summer in efforts to escape stagnation and become better connected with the creative wellspring of Chicago–and more specifically Wicker Park. A showcase of sorts that draws on the innumerable talents of close friends and new happenings, all of which continue to help me learn and grow.

For this, Boaz deserves my love and appreciation. He prompted me to put some effort into this creative venture by starting his own blog. Between our two random, scrumtrulescent, passionate, yet slightly twisted perspectives…things are bound to get pretty interesting…

Thanks B.


Posted by: cthankins | 23/06/2009

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